i hate you

i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know

Since I left you my life's been an absolute mess.
Completely awful, somehow Im still existing.
I filled this void I had without you,
just to realize that those people mean nothing.
Everyone means nothing.
They all equal nothing. I hate everyone.

I hate there ideas, they way they move the way they talk,
I hate everyone and everything,

well everyone except you .

and i hate that fact even more.

2 years, 2 and a half years, almost three.
these months without you are


empty,
I
have
no
motive
and
care
about
nothing.

"someone save me.
yet no one can.
Because Ill get bored and dwell on you again."

*sigh*

"you know I'm gonna marry you right"
"....I hope so."
"I will, even though we are living in the same room and I'm gonna hear you fuck people right next to me."
"I could never fuck someone with you in the room, that's just fucked up, I could never be that cruel to someone like you"

you know what sux, when you just ramble about your ex.
you know what sux even more is the fact that im just listening to it.


:(

I just kinda wish I didnt feel anything. anymore.

you could save me

but instead im drowning







Im fucking lost.

ghoul

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